Tarot
Blog Hop: Me And My Shadow
You've probably come here from the blog of Morgan Drake Eckstein, my neighbour in this round of the Tarot Blog Hop. And when you leave here, Joanna Ash has something to say to you. Please enjoy the journey. And if you should happen to lose your way amongst the spooky trees and shining jack-o-lanterns, Amethyst Mahoney's blog contains a Master List that can get you back on track....
And so, we look to the focus of the Samhain Blog Hop. This
Samhain, we have a very intriguing challenge for the 'Hop. Here, in
the words of our Wrangler Amethyst, is the topic for our Samhain
Blog Hop:
"Explore your Shadow side. What aspects
of yourself do you feel like you have to keep hidden? Sometimes this
takes form of hiding our magical selves from the “normal” world.
If Harry Potter taught us anything, it is that we must hide from the
Muggles. Even within our own Pagan and spiritual communities, many of
us are ridiculed and shamed for our beliefs. Whether you are told you
are too Light and too fluffy, or too Dark and too Vampirish, everyone
seems to have an opinion of how you “should” be. This Samhain, take the time to get in touch with the True You. Who
are you really, once you shake off the expectations of your community
and the World? If you find things you do not wish to publicly share
on your blog, share a little about your journey, or perhaps a Tarot
spread or ritual that you did to get you there. Or share if you felt
differently and what changes you may make in your life because of it.
While most people spend Halloween pretending they are someone or
something else, you dear one, can find time to pretend to be who You
really are. Who is hiding beneath the normal every-day mask you wear
for the World? I look forward to meeting you."
I looked forward to meeting Me, too. The one thing I know about
the Shadow is that your Shadow Self -- well, to put it simply, "hides
in the Shadows." In other words, you can't just go find your
Shadow by looking for it. You need to do as we of Traditional
Witchcraft are instructed to do when we "approach the
Altar"...look backwards over one shoulder, standing on one foot,
not attempting to go directly to the Source but using the roundabout
method of intuition, inspiration, and intrigue....So. I found a meme
on Facebook that gave me an idea for a spread...have you seen that
"Who do ______ think I am?" thing that's been going around?
It occurred to me that the main idea of finding the Shadow is that
one doesn't necessarily recognize one's own Shadow even when you find
it. Instead, we have to look through filters, through other sets of
eyes. And so-- a layout, drawn by inspiration and at random, that
might give some suggestions as to the tropes that identify the
Shadow....here we go. Follow me into the Shadow Realm and see how
much of this might apply to you.
Who My Mom Thinks I Am: This
card represents the view of our Shadow from those people, symbolized
by our "Mothers", who always seek, and see, the very best
in us, regardless of what is really going on. The first thing we need
to do in looking for the Shadow is to ignore the refrain of "oh,
you're just fine the way you are," whether it is being voiced by
other people or our own conscious mind which is resisting looking
inward. The Chariot card reminds us that there is a race going on, it
is a competition, we are needing to pull ourselves together and look
at the racecourse the way it really is. "Mom" may see us
standing triumphantly on the teetering seat, coming in in first
place. But we know in order to keep our balance, we need to be
constantly aware of the course and the obstacles thereon. Rachel
Pollack says, "The Chariot indicates the importance of willpower
in dealing with the problems shown in the reading. If the Chariot
appears in the position of Self in the Celtic Cross, it says that the
person has a strong will and this may help to bring about a
satisfactory outcome. In a difficult situation, it may show a will to
continue. In fact, meditation with this card can increase the
person's will power. If several cards in the reading suggest
weakness, but the Chariot appears in some key position such as
Possible Development, then it advises the person to approach the
situation with optimism and determination." In this place in
this layout, I see the Chariot representing the fact that the race is
ongoing, difficult, and perhaps not where we want to go--but we still
may prevail, if we choose to keep our balance. "Mom" says
we are winners. The race is hard, but we can do it. Maybe even within
our Shadow Self, there are ways to prevail.
Who My Friends Think I Am: Here
we have the Seven of Swords, and the word inscribed on the foot of
the card is "Uselessness"....so--how does that compute? If
people are our friends, how can they think of us as "useless"?
Well---this is one of those times when what we think we see isn't
exactly what was intended. "Who my friends think I am" is
probably more correctly interpreted, in this instance, as "Who I
think my friends think I am." As we said, one of the
Guardians to this Quest is understanding our own use of filters. And
false humility is a very common filter all of us use in evaluating
our Selves. Most of the time, whether or not we are willing to admit
it, we think our friends don't have as high an opinion of us as we
have of them. Most of us feel somewhat inferior, and as if we need to
"pump it up", in order to deserve the friendship of the
people with whom we associate. We usually feel as if we are lucky to
have the friends we have, and that they are doing us a favor to be
our friends in the first place. This is one of the first Gates to the
Shadow Realm--our feelings of inferiority, and our willingness to
think ourselves of less importance than are other people. If we are
going to discover the Shadow, we have first to identify who we
already are. Your friends think you are every bit as wonderful as you
think they are. Those Swords are standing in the way of a true
assessment of your Self. If you want to see what your friends think
of you--sheathe the sword, and simply ASK. You might be--you WILL
be--pleasantly surprised.And in order to identify your Shadow, you need to know, first, what it isn't.
Who My Cat Thinks I Am: A little
giggle here, but also a truth. Animals do have an acuity about us,
knowing our moods and temperament sooner, more accurately, and even
more in depth, than we do ourselves. And yes, for most of us, the
animal allies in our lives do see us as the Hierophant, the source of
wisdom, home, comfort and kitty-treats. But there's a truth hidden
here that might not be immediately accessible--'my cat' is a metaphor
for the animal instinct present within each of us. We do have a
mammalian soul, and that part of us is not subject to logic,
does not respond to rhetoric, nor can it be persuaded to act against its own interests.
When attempting to access the Shadow, it is essential to look to the
mammal-mind, that part of us which is always guarding our own best
interest and sees only that which is necessary for us to live and
thrive. What does your "inner feline" really want? Don't
forget that many times it is this kind of "selfishness"
that is perceived by the conscious mind as "shadow"... we
somehow have convinced ourselves that it is WRONG to think of our own
"best good". But that is not shadow--that is necessity, and
it makes possible the expansion of the psyche to embrace the good of
others. That "animal instinct" is, in this reading, expressed by the Hierophant, and is indicative of our own Inner Wisdom. So--look at yourself through cats' eyes, with cat's wisdom,
and see the real You hiding there behind the food-dish. Be Wise about
your Self. What do you really need, really want? And--is that Shadow,
or is that Sense? Only by clearing the extranea and misconceptions
out of the way can you see what is really lurking in your own
personal Shadow Realm. Miaou!!
Who My Mate Thinks I Am: Here,
we've drawn the Ace of Cups, which is probably one of the most
positive cards in readings about relationships. If you were reading
for yourself and your partner, this card represents the Marriage Cup,
the Holy Grail of happiness as contained within your relationship as
the Cup holds the Wine. But in this instance, the Grail Quest is a
bit more complex. Who does your Mate, the person closest to you in
reality, who does that person think you are? Are you truly the person
your Mate sees when s/he looks at you, or is the first place your
Shadow Self manifests in the most important relationship of your
life? The spiraling gold of the Cup in this card is elegant, regal,
quintessentially perfect. But the wine? what is it, how does it
taste, and does it "measure up" to the elegance of the Cup?
And--how does this relate to the Self you have shown or are showing
to your life partner? In many cases, we "groom ourselves"
to find a partner--we try to become something we are not, thinner,
more sexy, more elegant, more made-up, more successful-looking, so we
will attract the "right kind of man/woman." And,
unfortunately, this sets up a layer of deception which usually
persists throughout the relationship, until one day, you let your
"real self" out and all Hell breaks loose. When looking for
the Shadow, many of us need look no further than what J. AlfredPrufrock calls the "face" we have "prepared to meet
the faces that we meet." So on the Shadow Quest, we need to
examine closely the persona we are using in our deepest
relationships. Does the person you love, love YOU, or some cognate of
"my best self" that you have created? And, if you currently
don't have a partner, are you more interested in "finding the
right person" or in "being the real person"? When on
the Shadow Quest, one of the first stops in that journey is to look
into the eyes of the Beloved, and see the Self that is reflected
back. Does your Mate really know, love, understand, YOU? And if
not--maybe that's a good place to start on this journey.The first stop on the journey to understand the Shadow is to let the person/s you love see you as you really Are.
Who My Ego Thinks I Am:
"Ego" in this context is what Starhawk calls "Talking
Self", the rational mind, the "Sun Sign", spoken
astrologically. It represents the "me" that we see when we
look in the mirror, the Self that we present to the world, the Being
that we think of when we hear our own Names. And--the card this time
is a rather interesting choice, because Ego, which translated from
Latin simply means "I", can be the "eye" we have
on ourSelves when we are out in the world--the person(a) which we
expect to be "Me" as the world sees me. And yet--the card
is the Hermit, the avatar of solitude, the Being who withdraws from
the company of others and seeks out only the company of the Self, who
revels in solitary contemplation, who speaks to, and listens to, and
learns from, only the Self. This one scarcely needs an
interpretation, but since I have a tendency, like most Virgos, to
state the obvious, I will go ahead and point it out for you. Simply
put, this card is telling us, we who have embarked on the Quest for
the Shadow Realm, that the "Ego" we see in the mirror, the
persona we wish the world to associate with our Name, isn't who we
really are. We are being instructed here to go Within, to look
deeper, to spend time in our own House of Silence, our Inner Realm,
and to find out who really lives there. There are layers upon layers
of misconception about the Self by the time a person reaches
maturity--some of them have been wrapped around the persona by the
expectations and insistence of others, and some of them have been
willingly donned by the Self as protections against the perceived
parts of the Self we don't care to acknowledge. But the Ego--the "I"
of you--must, above all else, tell itself the truth. And so--retreat
to the Hermit's Cave, forget the false apperceptions of "who I
think I am" and "who I wish I was" and take a long,
hard look at "who I really am." This is the first real
challenge of the Search for the Shadow...and it is the one without
which the Quest will die before it is born. Look at your Self,
honestly, frankly, completely. Don't make your Self any less, nor any
more, than who you are. And--be ready to be surprised, often
positively, by what you will find.
Who I Really Am: I
will admit, I was surprised to see the card I drew here, the one
that is intended to convey what may be found at the bottom of the
Well of Shadows. Most of us, myself included, see the Shadow Realm as
terrifying, see the possibilities of "ghoulies and ghosties and
long-leggity beasties" hiding in our own psyche as quite a
sufficient reason to keep that gate closed forever,
thenkewveddymutch. And yet--here at the apex of this reading, I draw
the Two of Swords, the card that represents the Will to Peace. Swords
are always potentially dangerous--unless sheathed. And two swords at
rest recognizes the potential for hostility but affirms instead the
choice of Peace. And so--how does this relate to the Shadow Quest
upon which we have embarked this Samhain? What does the Two of Swords
tell us about the discovery of our Shadow Self, and what to do with
the knowledge? Rachel Pollock's interpretation of this card is
perhaps the best place to start. In her words, "In readings, the
Two of Swords means tranquility. It speaks of achieving a sense of
serenity, possibly in a difficult situation. For now, the conflicting
forces are kept apart and all is quiet. The forces (the two walls)
may refer to people quarreling, especially if the subject of the
reading finds him or herself in the middle. Peace is stronger than
battle, at least for the moment. The time of peace may provide
opportunities for prospering, or new growth. The person needs to be
sure to take the proper steps so that growth will continue."
This speaks very cogently of the state of mind inherent upon us as we
discover the Realm of Shadow within us. We may not like all we have
found. Perhaps we discover that we are, indeed, arrogant, or
unskilled, or deceptive, or whatever qualities within ourselves we
feel least inclined to acknowledge. We want to fight with this knowledge, to battle it, to refuse to acknowledge it as truth, to defeat it. But--the card says, "Be at
Peace with that, whatever it is." And why? Does that mean, just
accept what we find, and walk away? Not at all. This card reminds us
that "peace is stronger than battle" and tells us not to
attempt to reject our Shadow, but instead to "take the proper
steps so that growth will continue." The Shadow Self is a
toolbox. There is something to be said for accepting the pieces of
our Selves which we find difficult or hostile, and looking with
calmness and serenity upon them, and thinking, with the eyes of the
Hermit, "What can I use this for? What can I make of this? What
kind of a TOOL is this thing?" Is your perceived arrogance a cloak for self-respect and refusal to be abused? Is your supposed lack of skill merely an indicator that you are trying to do the wrong things? What can you do with your faculty for deception...storyteller? poet? politician? (insert small giggle here). And the answer to these questions
may make it possible for us to find Peace within the Shadow, and
further our Transformation. The Quest for the Shadow Self is really an invitation to Become. And all of us are capable of doing that, if we really look.
Samhain Blessings on your journey beyond
the Veil. Treasures await you in the Shadow Realm. Be at Peace!
beith
seidh,
Aisling
the TarotWitch
And, speaking of journeys, don't forget to visit Morgan Drake Eckstein, my neighbour in this round of the Tarot Blog Hop, if you didn't get here from there. You can move from here to Joanna Ash, and if you
should happen to lose your way amongst the spooky trees and shining
jack-o-lanterns, Amethyst Mahoney's blog contains a Master List that can get you back on track....Happy Hopping!
First,
at the end of August, or the beginning of September, we look to the
Hazel tree. Hazel is the traditional Celtic symbol of wisdom. The old
tale tells of Fintan, nine years a salmon and fed upon the hazel nut,
who became thereby the wisest man in the world. (Please remember that
it was the Salmon of Wisdom who assisted Arthur and his Knights in
the search for Mabon, the Hidden God.) The hazel bears nuts after a
nine-year cycle, which was a magickal number in Celtic lore. It is a
small round nut in a seemingly seamless shell, which is nearly
impossible to crack forcefully without smashing the nutmeat;
therefore it became a prime exemplar of the kernel of truth or hidden
wisdom...hidden sweetness which must be achieved with time, patience
and art rather than brute force. Indeed the kernel of the hazelnut
with its compact strength and sustenance is the source of our saying,
" That's the whole thing in a nutshell." As the number nine
indicates, eating of the hazel nut brought all the wisdom of the Nine
Arts of the Celts: Music, Lore, Dancing, Truthtelling, Farseeing,
Talemaking, Worldwalking, Healing, and Rebirth. At the Hazel Moon,
Wise Ones concentrate on the lore and wisdom of their elders, on
nurturing and expanding their own inner wisdom, and on studying the
wisest ways to deal with the situations of their own lives. And so
the Hazel Moon, for our purposes, is the goal-setter, the Tree that
represents our discovery of the need for transformation, of the need
to discover our own hidden truth, and sets for us the task of finding
the hidden sweetness which will take our time, effort, and focus.
So--the task is set. Where in the Forest do we travel next?
